I am in very MOYA-MOYA situation.
i am feeling like very Moya-moya.
moya-moya means; gloomy,foggy,unclear,
for my definition of Moyamoya feeling means , feeling like a dark grey cloudy day in my mind.
Japanese have so many strange words for describe feelings.
so, Lets figure out why i have grey cloud foggy in my mind.
things what i frustrating about...
1. i've still can't decide very simple question for the future.
2. i knew that working with man that sometimes i have to be fuckin hostess or have to be stupid girl.
3. i miss him but can't see him for a while.
4. i have so many things what i wanna tell and talk with him .but my English skill is not well enough.
5. i've met so many peoples that could heve known many kinds of sense of value of life. but for now i'm little get tired to seeing new people.
what i most frustrating about is ...
all the problems are [depende on me]
so i just knew what i need to do
1 reserch about what i looking for. where , what , how much
2 just work and smile every day.
3 wait untill he comes here. try to do something different for not to think about him.
4 Study English hard, try TOEFL test.
5. i think it's time to care for small circle of friends who i really care.
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oh i miss all the view of photos.
in the deep forest,
deep foggy,
silence of the morning,
smells and air of the fresh green.
i miss that loneliness, feels like i am the only person exist in the earth.
ohhhh i miss that so much.
